This fifth installment in the A Court of Thorns and Roses series tells Nesta’s story. Nesta was one of the hated characters in this series but also not hated by many. When SJM announced that she was writing a book about Nesta’s journey, I was really happy about it. I was eagerly waiting for it. This book has definitely become my favorite book in this series, after A Court of Mist and Fury.
𝑆ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑤𝑜𝑙𝑓 𝑤ℎ𝑜 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑎 𝑤𝑜𝑙𝑓, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑐𝑖𝑒𝑡𝑦. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑙, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟.Sarah J Maas
Nesta’s constant drinking and misconduct led Feyre to take away some privileges and force her to live according to her rules, if she failed to abide by them then she would be exiled to the human world. She was to start training and to start working in the library in the House of Wind, where she was to live from now on; her only way out of the house was the grueling staircase with ten thousand steps.
Cassian was given the task to train Nesta. Nesta, of course, didn’t make it easy for him. She humiliated and hurt him in every way but Cassian got through her and she started training.
On the other side, one of the human queens, Briallyn, is on the hunt for The Death Trove; a mask that can bring back the dead and control them, a crown that can make anyone do the bidding of the one wearing it and a harp that can bend time and space. These in the hands of the wrong person would be devastating.
Cassian and Nesta start to look for the Trove before it gets into the enemy’s hands and prevent a destructive war.
𝐾𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑Sarah J Maas
Nesta always lived with the demons of her past that constantly haunted her. These were not just from the previous war that took place in A Court of Wings and Ruin, her pain and hatred took root long before the war. She built a wall around herself, shut everyone out, hurt anyone who came too close to her. Her sharp words and defiance became a defensive mechanism to all the difficult situations she faced. It was all she knew. So when Feyre gave her the ultimatum to live by her rules or be exiled she acted defensively but she accepted her fate.
Slowly she fell into a rhythm- training, working, running up and down those ten thousand steps, reading. Day by day she grew stronger, she started to make bonds; something that she never imagined she would be able to. She always thought that because of what she’d done, her past, no one would be her friend, that she would always be alone.
𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑎𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑙, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑙 𝑖𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑤𝑜. 𝑁𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑢𝑠. 𝑁𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑠 𝐼𝑙𝑙𝑦𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑠, 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑒𝑤. 𝑇𝑜 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚, 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑚𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑢𝑚𝑝ℎ 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛.Sarah J Maas
She felt and understood what the priestess, in the library, might have faced. She encouraged them to train, she encouraged them to be strong enough to not just protect themselves but prove the misogynistic, patriarchal society that being a female doesn’t make them weak, they can face any challenge no matter how tough it is. They are strong. They are fierce. They are bloodthirsty. They are Valkyrie.
Nesta is now one of my favorite characters. Her character is so complex and so intricately written. I loved her journey, her growth. I loved how she accepted her darkness, that she was finally able to find solid ground, find peace. She understood why Feyre did what she did and in the end she was happy. She finally understood that she would never be alone, she has friends, family and a fabulous mate and they all love and adore her.
𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑐𝑘 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑐ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑓 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑠.
𝑁𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑚𝑒.
𝑁𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑢𝑠.Sarah J Maas
I really loved her relationship with the house. I loved how the house behaved like a fussing mother hen always trying to feed her, keeping Cassian out when she fell asleep naked. The house became Nesta’s friend, it helped her grow, it showed her the darkness that resided in its heart and Nesta welcomed it. The best part for me was their love for smutty romance books. When they started exchanging books, I swear it was the best thing ever.
Gwyn, Emerie and Nesta are amazing together. Their friendship and love for each other is so beautiful. They cheer and encourage each other. They push each other to be better. They share and accept each other’s darkness, trusting each other to have their back, to be there for them when things get tough.
I’ve always had a massive crush on Cassian but now that crush has magnified into something else. I feel so many things for him. The way he endured what he had faced in the past and the way he faces all the name calling and slurs in the illyrian camps now? It’s just astonishing how he keeps himself composed like that. I loved how patient he was with Nesta, he gave her the time and space she needed. He loved her even when she hurt him, he was there for all the good and the bad.
𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛. 𝑆𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑦 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.Sarah J Maas
I don’t know what it is about SJM’s books but they are like magic to me, they are just the perfect blend of everything that I need whenever I’m feeling down. This book was the same for me as well.
This book didn’t even feel like it was a 757-page book. I couldn’t get enough of it. I wanted to gobble up this book as fast as possible but I forced myself to slow down. I didn’t want to go into another month-long book hangover, which I knew I would get if I read it too fast. I am just in awe of this book. It shows how important it is to face our demons and then emerge victorious. It portrays a beautiful, unbreakable bond between three girls who held each other up and became fierce warriors, Valkyrie. It represented love that held no bounds. I love how much SJM’s writing has evolved, how much depth it has; the emotions just keep on coming, there’s no stopping it.